Dear Hate, I hate you too

For making me the enemy solely because of my skin 

For making me cry for you 

Try to teach you better 

Teach you love 

When you knew the lesson 

You just would apply it to confederate flags 

Monuments that don’t bleed

And money, oh you love money 

You love big business, and labels, and you love things

You love things and you long to posses people

How fucking backwards 

I hate you too

For being my brother, my sister, my family and my cancer 

For making me scream for you

I try to save you, oh I try 

Save you from yourself 

From a lifetime of fighting winless battles

From Civil War and domestic terrorism 

Stop this

Stop lying, stop hiding, behind 

Capitalism, blue lives matter, politics, history

Just stop

How many more excuses will you make

I hate you too 

Cause I’m tired of loving you 

I’m exhausted from seeing the best in you 

Only to be given the worst 

I’m tired 

Of explaining why I’m here

Why I belong here

Why I should be here

Just like you 

I love you

And I think that’s the worst part of it all

I love you and 

I hate you too 

For making me feel so hopeless

~R.K. Russell

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